You know that point in a person’s life where they just want to say forget it about everything and EVERY one they are around. I find myself there more than often and get in moods where i just have to literally delete people in order to stay sane… thank you life. I have learned over the past couple of year to take the bad things that happen in your life and put it before God… But honestly today was one of those days where I found myself asking where he was because everything sucked.
There is nothing that a jog around that oval can’t fix. Whether it is running off some steam or just having a conversation with yourself about where you’re at in your life. It’s like that moment or 4 hours in my case when im running on big mama red herself, nothing else matters. I am free from drama, responsibility, and outside life.
Sometimes the pressure of having to perform, balance life, and keep friends and relationships functional can get overwhelming. everyone expects you to be on top of it 24’7 when sometimes you wish that you could just do something for you.
There are times when things are taken away that are apart of you for so long like being an athlete, artist, musician etc., and you end up with just being a person. Those things are gifts that won’t last for ever. Body’s get weak, sight fades, and voices become unheard. Today as I warmed up all i could think about was how i didn’t want to be there today 1. because I was sleepy from the 3 hours of sleep i got and as I stayed there lap after lap i realized that I really just wanted to be happy again to LOVE what god gave me the ability to do and to do it well.
BUT- today no matter how hard I wanted to be there an only there i still found myself upset and still could not understand why this feeling would not go away! Thank God people know me better than I think sometimes. It took an older man who is on the track with his daughter everyday to show me that regardless of what was going on who is with me or gone , I would be ok.