“For those of us who can take more, he makes life more challenging to make us the best we can be…”
The best things from a person may not be in an action… but in words. Little did my friend know that he was just as important as me. Because he thought his accomplishments were small… they were big enough for me to understand and see that he kept with his dream and kept trying, living it fully without the regret of quitting. So I share this with you guys ! Who knows, maybe it will help you see that you and what your dreaming is still important no matter how small or big it may be :)!
I read your latest blog and I thought that it was moving. I had no idea that you struggled as much as you did that day. I cannot really know your disappointment as I never came close to competing at your level. I was at the top of my state in high school, ran a 2:51 marathon at age 17, and was in the top 3 runners on my NCAA 3 college team, but that is a long, long way from being an all-American. I ran with some Olympians and I loved watching them, but knew that no matter how hard I tried, I would never be like them. I ended up getting a persistent tendinitis, and left running for water polo and triathlons (a multi event sport I guess), and I did fairly well at that, but was never at the top in the US.
I remember my state x-country championship meet my senior year and it went like it did for you this weekend. I finished well out of the lead, losing to people I had beaten easily at districts the week before.
I still can’t explain what happened. Running was like that for me. Sometimes I would turn in a PB effortlessly, and others I would struggle to finish. The sad thing is that I generally could not predict what it would be.
A month ago I watched another indoor in Albuquerque and happened to run into Carl Lewis who is a friend of my brother and an acquaintance of mine. Carl is a great guy and we talked for about 10 minutes. I was amazed that he was not over run with autograph seekers, as he was arguably the top T&F athlete of the century. We both enjoyed watching the races. I told him that it was such a joy to watch the athletes perform, that although I was never anywhere near this it his level, I still do appreciate it. Carl told me that he was just like me now, that age was the great equalizer and that we were both out of the game. What an amazing man Carl is.
My point to all this is that you are still in the game, enjoy every moment of it. A survey was done for a book recently of billionaires who were asked what they had that they valued the most and the response was their memories. Treasure those, they are priceless.
All your struggles make you who you are. Embrace them for God does have a plan for all of us. For those of us who can take more, he makes life more challenging to make us the best we can be. It may be that the inner strength you develop from this is not fully evident in your T&F performance, but I believe that there will be a day when you look back on this and realize its importance.
I wish you all the best.